Hopeful

I am having one of those days where you say screw it. I am sick and tired of losing the same five to eight pounds over and over. Apparently I can't drive in a car without gaining weight. I blame the gas stations. Of course, eight hours of car means zilch excercise.
The food wasn't as bad as it could have been. My family is also health conscious and it seemed that the choices weren't bad. That leaves the gas station snacking as the culprit. My advice to anyone going on a road trip: pack a lunch. That goes back to what everyone is saying, fail to plan you plan to fail. Don't think that it was the fault of the poor choices entirely, oh there was indulgences.
Timbits,many.
Pringles, yes.
Beef jerky, two packs. (there and back)
Gummy bears, whole bag.
One night of ice cream madness!
Many many diet pepsis.
Now I feel sad that the weight came back. And I was saying to myself, this sucks, why doesn't this work, why bother I am tired of trying and failing.
Now, looking at the above, can I honestly say I tried? No. Definately not. None of those foods are on my approved list, so yes the same pounds came back. Again. At least they weren't on top of the pounds I never lost. Yes, I failed. And at this very moment I have intentions of compounding that by going out tonight for wings with friends. Now, I am telling myself that this is my last big splurge. Is that true? Time will tell. My flaw is that I want this to be easy.

Dr. Phil has a weight loss book. It is really good (if you put it in practice) and it talks about the "locus of control" which means what sort of thinking you put on your weight. If you are an internally driven person then you feel that it is your fault and you will succeed by changing yourself. If you think it is the fault of the universe and cutlture etc. then you change surroundings and think about influences and how you are really in control. Apparently both these types of thinkers will lose weight.

I fell into the third category (judging by the quizz) which is the "chance" category. This means you think that everything is chance and can't possibly be influenced. Now, historically it has seemed to me that weight loss magically happened to me for reasons beyond my control. I moved countries and had a healthy lifestyle and all this weight magically came off. It did seem to take no work on my part and I didn't learn any sort of self governance that would lead to sustained weight loss. In university I had friends that worked out and I went with them and "magically" lost weight again. Now I keep thinking that God or whoever will send another mysterious set of circumstances that will lead to a healthy lifestyle without me having to grow or change as a person. It seems that my plan has been the "lazyness" plan up til now. According to Dr. Phil the chance person has the least liklihood of losing weight.
Buggar.